[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":164},["ShallowReactive",2],{"content:\u002Fen\u002F2026\u002Fone-year-review":3,"surround:\u002Fen\u002F2026\u002Fone-year-review":157},{"id":4,"title":5,"body":6,"categories":125,"date":127,"description":128,"draft":129,"extension":130,"image":131,"lang":132,"meta":133,"navigation":142,"path":143,"permalink":131,"published":131,"readingTime":144,"recommend":131,"references":131,"seo":149,"sitemap":150,"stem":151,"tags":152,"translationKey":153,"type":154,"updated":155,"__hash__":156},"content\u002Fen\u002Fposts\u002F2026\u002Fone-year-review.md","From Waiting for Results to Making Things: One Year",{"type":7,"value":8,"toc":116},"minimark",[9,13,16,19,22,27,30,33,36,40,43,46,54,58,61,64,87,90,94,98,101,104,107,110,113],[10,11,12],"p",{},"This happens to coincide with the reading club's anniversary event, so I will write down the past year — what happened, and what I took from it.",[10,14,15],{},"This time last year, I was at home, cramming for the postgraduate entrance exam.",[10,17,18],{},"The university library was closed for renovation, so I simply moved my desktop machine from school back home. Days were for studying; in the evenings I opened VRChat and chatted with friends from all over the world. Oddly enough, my spoken English improved faster in that period than during exam prep — language, it seems, only really moves when you actually want to talk to someone.",[10,20,21],{},"In November the library reopened and I went back to prepare. That was the most efficient stretch I have ever had. On exam day I felt calm; on the evening after the major paper, I walked across the snow-covered campus one last time and felt nothing but quiet.",[23,24,26],"h2",{"id":25},"one-failed-attempt-and-one-overnight-train","One failed attempt, and one overnight train",[10,28,29],{},"On the day results came out, I had missed the interview cutoff for my first choice. Honestly, it was not a surprise — I am genuinely not good at exams.",[10,31,32],{},"Then came the round of emails to supervisors and waiting for replies. A school I had prepared well for fell through because of a policy change, and I missed one round of transfers. Later I received an interview invitation from another city, bought an overnight high-speed rail ticket and went — written test in the morning and interview in the afternoon the next day, with two online interviews squeezed in before and after.",[10,34,35],{},"Just before the noon deadline the next day, I clicked confirm on the admission offer. The major is Mechanical Engineering — a properly orthodox name, and convenient when introducing myself to foreigners. Back home I emailed the supervisor, we got along well, and that is how I joined the group.",[23,37,39],{"id":38},"beijing-the-first-time-what-i-made-actually-worked","Beijing: the first time what I made actually worked",[10,41,42],{},"At the end of April I interviewed at a robotics startup in Beijing, got through, and started right after the May Day holiday.",[10,44,45],{},"Everyone in my intern cohort had a much prettier academic record than mine, and for a while I felt quite inferior. But once I actually started working, I found that whether you can bring a board to life and chase a problem to the end has far less to do with your degree than I had assumed. In those months I built up a good deal of hardware and algorithm experience in high-power brushless motor drives, and — more importantly — perspective: at the end of August, before the internship ended, I went to the World Robot Conference; and because of work I got into the joint-motor production and testing area of a humanoid robotics company, and saw the real production lines and test benches behind the phrase \"embodied intelligence\".",[47,48,51],"alert",{"title":49,"type":50},"One takeaway","info",[10,52,53],{},"The biggest gain from that internship was not an extra line on my CV, but learning for the first time the difference between \"finished\" and \"working\": finished means you handed the task over; working means it actually turns.",[23,55,57],{"id":56},"now-days-at-the-workbench","Now: days at the workbench",[10,59,60],{},"In September I enrolled and joined the research group. My supervisor is very decent — no clock-in, no mandatory group meetings, just move your work forward at your own pace. That was a great relief. It is genuinely busy, but when I sink into the work I get a bit of solid satisfaction.",[10,62,63],{},"The anxiety this year has clearly decreased. Not because there is less to do, but because I finally have something I can push forward a little every day.",[65,66,68,71,84],"folding",{"title":67},"Deeper dive: how I handle anxiety",[10,69,70],{},"Most of my anxiety used to come from thinking — and what I thought about was usually unverified inference: will the job market be terrible, will degrees keep devaluing, is this the right path. Later I gave myself a dumb method:",[72,73,74,78,81],"ol",{},[75,76,77],"li",{},"Write the vague worry down and split it into a few questions that can actually be checked;",[75,79,80],{},"Check what can be checked; mark the rest \"unknown\" and stop chewing on it;",[75,82,83],{},"Keep only one or two smallest actions per day — finishing them counts as a win.",[10,85,86],{},"There is nothing profound in this, but it has pulled me out of idle spinning a few times.",[10,88,89],{},"As I write this, I am still putting AI to work. It burns something like three hundred million tokens a day, all to polish one demo, so I can go after funding for this project. With funding I can let go and build robots at real scale — that thought is genuinely exciting.",[23,91,93],{"id":92},"three-things-i-learned-this-year","Three things I learned this year",[95,96,97],"quote",{},"Stop living from one result to the next. The only thing that lands is the board in your hands right now.",[10,99,100],{},"The second is that the body is more honest than the mood. I pulled one all-nighter to hit a deadline, and the next two days were basically written off; since then I have drawn a shutdown line — if I really do stay up, the next day is resignedly a no-task day.",[10,102,103],{},"The third: you only really understand something when you can explain it so others understand it. During the internship I put together a set of drive-related tutorials and documents, and I got more out of writing them than out of reading them.",[105,106],"hr",{},[10,108,109],{},"This time last year I thought the fork in life was an exam. Now I know the fork is there every day; most of the time nobody tells you that is what it is.",[10,111,112],{},"From waiting for results to making things took me one year. It was not a smooth year, but every part of it counts.",[10,114,115],{},"One more thing: if I win a prize in the reading club's year-in-review event, I will convert it into DeepSeek tokens for my own use — running agents every day does cost real money, and that is probably the most practical way to spend it.",{"title":117,"searchDepth":118,"depth":118,"links":119},"",4,[120,122,123,124],{"id":25,"depth":121,"text":26},2,{"id":38,"depth":121,"text":39},{"id":56,"depth":121,"text":57},{"id":92,"depth":121,"text":93},[126],"生活","2026-10-23 15:10:00","A year ago I was at home cramming for the postgraduate entrance exam; now I am at a workbench soldering boards. In between: one failed attempt, one transfer, an internship in Beijing, and some not-very-dignified feelings.",false,"md",null,"en",{"slots":134},{"copyright":135},{"props":136,"type":7,"value":138},{"title":137},"No reposting on any platform",[139],[10,140,141],{},"This piece is only about my own life. 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